Alrighty, I want to know why that shithead Willow decided to play with my heart and my emotions and throw me aside like a paper cup after he got his jollies. I do not understand why it was that he wanted to do such a thing, offer me some hope for a relationship and then snatch it away as soon as I wanted to get together and do something. I cannot fathom why that shithead decided to fuck with my head like that. He tried to deny that he did such a thing today. Now, I know that he did, what he did was as clear as a fucking bell. The only thing I am interested in is knowing why he did such a thing.
Today, I brought it up to him and I told him that I was very interested in him. He flat out told me that he did not remember ever coming on to me. He told me that he was gay and that was not going to change. Now, the gay part - I can understand and deal with, that is something that he cannot control, even if he wanted to. (Did I come off writing that down like it was a problem? I am sorry if I did.) But he can control his ability to be a prick and he chose to be a total and complete prick when he decided to fuck with my head and my heart. That was so low and that was so evil. I kept asking him why and he kept denying it. I eventually told him that I did not want to see or speak to him again.
What is the most sad is that I actually believed him, and all of his lies. I believed that he loved me. I believed that after he denied that, he wanted to be friends. And I believed that he wanted to get back together again. I am completely heartbroken that he decided to fuck me over. I feel completely used and torn apart. I believed him to be the only guy that I would date, because I thought he was the only guy who would not play with my heart and my emotions. Funny how you learn the truth about these things.
*sigh* I am so going to move back to Oregon or Canada when I get the chance.
