You’ll Never See My Pussy, Unless We’re Dating. ;-P

Many transwomen post photos of their surgeries online and while I have taken a look at these photos, I would have to say that I have no desire to ever take photos of my new vagina simply because of the fact that it just simply goes beyond my comfort level. In this post, I want to explain why it is that transwomen choose to share photos of their surgery results. I also want to explain the differences between them and me, as there are a few fundamental differences between these women and I which would prohibit me from sharing these photos online. I also explain some of my considerations, such as helping to promote the services of my doctor which has done so much to help me, albeit at my own expense.

One of the fundamental differences between the women who have shared their post-op surgery photos and I is simply anonymity. I made a conscious choice long ago to be out about who I am to be out about who I am. I wrote a lot of content about transsexuality, and I intend to write a lot more, under my real name and make this content freely available to all on this website. While I have no problem with sharing ideas and philosophies on the nature of gender, sexuality and love, as well as entities in society where these intersect, I do have a problem with doing something that would have the neighbours accurately undressing me. You see, this would cause all sorts of awkward interactions in the hallways of our apartment complex and at the swimming pool and I think that I would like to try to avoid that as much as possible. You can read about my surgical experience but unless you are in a romantic relationship with me, I am not really comfortable with sharing more intimate knowledge of my transition. My private parts and much of my old life is pretty much unavailable for discussion unless I bring it up. When I am in a truly loving, committed relationship, my partner will see more of me than other people get to and may actually learn my old name but that is par for the course, no?

I could resolve my issue with anonymity by sending a post-op photograph to some creepy collector of post-op vagina pictures, like Anne Lawrence. This presents it’s own problem though, as I want to share my body only with the person that loves me enough to make some sort of life long commitment. I know I have talked about marriage and pursuing a husband before but as I move further and further away from the surgery, I realize just how much men suck and I really would not like to have their influence in my life. Finding a good man is like trying to find the holy fucking grail, it just seems to be a task which, even with a lifetime of dedication, cannot be achieved. This is why I feel very lucky about being a strongly lesbian pansexual rather than being a straight transwoman, as finding a good man willing to date us is a journey with very little success. Still, I have to keep hope that one day, my prince will come, as long as I remember that given the diversity in the human populace, not all men suck. Most do, but I am certain that there are some that possess character and honest intentions.

I also want to touch on the fact that my surgeon, Dr. Pichet Rodchareon, was very good to me while I was in Thailand for my surgery and he really helped me out. He made sure I was very comfortable while I was in Thailand and he made every effort to help alleviate my fears while I was in Thailand. He has done things above what a surgeon is expected to do and for this, I truly thank him. But surgery result photos online for my doctor are very rare since he is not as well known as some Thai doctors like Drs. Preecha and Suporn. I think it is more because he is more interested in building his practice while in Thailand rather than creating a teaching hospital and becoming a name in the industry. However, I do feel that my personal comfort level prohibits me from actually sharing photos of my new vagina and I regretfully say that this decision is not negotiable. Dr. Pichet has photos of his handiwork but I trust that he is not going to share them online, simply because that would be a serious breech of ethics, one that I really do not believe Dr. Pichet would do.

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