I think it’s high time for some reflection on what it truly means to me, to be trans. Well, even though I have had a lot of ups and downs, a lot of highs and lows and I have won a lot of battles in my struggle to be me, I must admit that there are some problems in my life which are horribly difficult to contend with. I am now on my 10th month on hormones and my 5th month being full-time. With the exception of my voice, I have been told that I pass pretty well and I am certain that the more that I work on, the better things are going to get. So, let’s get this status report under way, eh? Continue reading ‘10 Months on Hormones, 5 Months Full-Time’
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Yesterday, when I was at Whole Foods Market, it came. A monster of a migrane headache came on full throttle and attacked me from my sinus all the way up to my right eyebrow. It hurt like hell and it continued on, even until I got home from Whole Foods (which is like 30-45 minutes of public transit). It continued on all through the night and when I woke up, I finally thought I was free of the blasted thing. But the minute I got out of bed, it arose again. That pounding headache. That painful manifestation of my withdrawal from Caffeine. And I would not know that this was the reason until I finally decided to give in and see if this was the reason. I bought myself a one litre bottle of Dr. Pepper and started drinking it. And I noticed from that moment on, my headache started to go away. I have a caffeine addiction and I was experiencing the painful symptoms of Caffeine withdrawal. Continue reading ‘Withdrawal is a bitch!’
Yesterday, I had quite a bad scare about my hormones. I was wondering why it was that I had not gone to the clinic for Estradiol in what seemed like a while. So, I counted out my medications and it looked like there were about 12 days worth of Estradiol pills left. The problem with this is that according to the label on the bottle, the last time I refilled my hormones was on June 10th. Oh, holy shit. That was well over a month ago and that really does scare me, seeing as I would have taken only 18 days of meds in a 42-day period. For me to have taken that amount of Estradiol in that span of time is a real MediScare. This means that I have made a lot of mistakes that could seriously have some adverse effects on my health. Continue reading ‘Hormonal Medi-Scare’
Sadly, I learned about a month ago that the amount of the Stafford Loan from Community College of Denver is too laughably small to help me get the surgery. So, with the little job prospects that I do have and the little hope that I have of getting gainful employment, I am going to have to cede to the fact that I will not be having surgery before the end of the surgery. But if nothing else, it will help teach me how to live as female without the surgery, thus appreciating the surgery more. And yes, it will give me more time to prepare things before I leave. Namely, the little things such as getting a cache of money together for Chinese food delivery, a cache of food to ensure that I do not have to run to Whole Foods while lying around the house, enough to pay off my utilties for a couple of months and to purchase the sundry items needed that I would go through much quicker since I would be at home, recovering from major surgery. Continue reading ‘The surgery date will have to be next year’